STEPH!

Had grandma's birthday celebration last sunday. :D And I finally upload those photos in facebook today. Haha. Anyway, I had been working overtime this weekdays except for wednesday I think because I went to watch new moon! Woo! Such a nice show and the ending was sort of cool. LOL! Then saturday went class outing at east coast. Super tired! Haha but I think it's quite fun except for the some part. Haha. Head over to bugis to eat steamboat and then home. LOL. Had a long day on saturday. :) The photos are with Elis so I can't upload them. Have to wait for her. Haha. And I don't think I can update during weekdays cause also work till midnight, :( Argh! Haha. I'm getting my pay soon! Woo, but have to pay off debt first. LOL. Alright, nothing much too. Goodbye!

Things have changed.

So please tell me that you are going to be fine.

I couldn't even sense that. Sighed. It's not my fault either. You didn't tell me. Hmm, just now went to my cousin 21st birthday at east coast chalet. :) Haha, and I was thinking about my next year birthday. :) I want to open chalet to celebrate lei but mother say very troublesome. :( Anyone wants to help me plan? HAHA! Anyway, before going to the chalet, I went over to chinatown to "work" with my another cousin. LOL. Today sales was not bad, we earned $139. Haha, it's better than nothing. :) Nothing much too, just that I need my hair cut soon! And I meant it! I can't even see my eyes. LOL!

You tempted me.
Aww, should I pierce?

Hmm, been working with brother for the past 2 days and it's quite tiring and maybe fun? Haha. But time files pass very fast during working. :) So overall, okay la. Haha. Except the journey is long. Zzz. Just like the journey to TP. Hmm, Submitted all my document to TP on tuesday liao so now is wait for result and the PPP. Ahh, 8 week lei! No joke, 9 days have to stay in campus. -.-! Then monday went out with friends to watch 2012 again! Argh! Haha, then played pool then off to eat late dinner, aiyo, fat! Then home already. Nothing much just that its already december! Omg! Haha. :) No school=boring! At least in school can crap around, now boring. :( Sian, class outing next week but I got work. LOL. Sighed.

Now I understand,
Somethings cannot asked for reward.
Just like that incident..

Oh man, I've been rotting at home for the past 2 weeks. :( I could have gone to work and earn some extra money. Sighed. No wonder people said time=money. HAHA! Well, today was quite a fruitful trip to bishan. :) Bought some Christmas presents for cousins. Heh. So excited about the Christmas party holding at pris' house! They had already decorate their house with tree! I saw that yesterday when I went over to her place for mahjong session. LOL! I lost 24 bucks! Oh man, my allowance all gone! Haha! But it's okay, money can always be earn back. :)

Sometimes, I wonder why I must be the one to take initiative? Is this fate? Haha, I think so. It's always me asking you instead of you asking me. Okay, maybe one or two time is you ask me but most of the time is me doing the job. Haha, maybe you are busy or what. Maybe I'm too free. Sighed... Without the initiative, we will distance apart. Now, I could sense that everything is different or rather, everything is changing without me knowing anything. The moment I saw you, I was dumbfounded. I was speechless. I don't know how to start a conversation.. I realise, we have a gap, a gap that may take a lot of years to patch back.. :\

I've let them down
but, I've never failed you.
Sounds familar?

History repeat again? I doubt so. All these while, I've been ridiculous. Showing attitude to others who are innocent. Really sorry. I didn't notice that I'm hurting those around me. :\ But one thing is for sure, someone somehow did spoilt this friendship of mine. Sighed. You are really disgusting. I don't even know why I trusted you in the first place. Haha. Or maybe I took this too seriously? I don't know. I've explained it on the day we meet why I've been so confuse. Yes, I do felt threatened and insignificant. But after hearing what you said and what you wrote, I thought for awhile and believed its all true.. It's just that I'm stubborn.. Haha. After all, I hope we are not just being good on the surface but also in the heart. Forgive and forget?

Best thing I've ever received from God :
-A priceless friendship.

I shouldn't lose confidence. Haha, it's a sure win war isn't it? :) Anyway, I still haven't decide whether should I change poly but most of my family members asked me to stay in TP. Haha! Maybe I should listen to their advices and stay put there. :) Went cousin's place to celebrate his son 2 years old birthday. :) It was a tiring day for me as I had to look after the kids! LOL! But the most disappointing thing is that I have a relative that is not responsible. Sighed. It always happen without fail. The couple always went missing, leaving their children behind for us to look after. Gosh, what kind of parents are they? Really disgusted by their action. Sighed. Well, there's nothing much to talk about already so goodnight! :)

Report out on the 30th.
Still in confusion~

Oh damn! It's all too late! I regretted! Sighed. But, there's nothing I can do but to pray hard for my result. :( Sighed. I shouldn't have apply it in the first place. Damn, all my fault luh! So idiot. Also don't know why suddenly want to change my mind. Haha. because of friends? Family? Time? Money? LOL, don't know. No peace for me now. Sighed, there's still a lot of things in my mind. I don't know where to start off so shall not elaborate more.

Didn't trust you enough.
My apologies.
You are always changing.